I don't have the time or energy to come up with something. So here's an excerpt of the first chapter of my latest. It's rough.
Meg is walking to the school where she teaches in South Korea.
Enjoy.
A thin man yelled prices for his
fruit truck through a loud speaker, parked on a busy corner. In another time and place, his chants might
have been the monotonous dribble of political slogans. Cars eeked past his truck, avoiding a woman
and her baby carriage. Several
bicyclists and motor scooters shared the narrow road with the cars, and Meg
wove through the traffic, finding a place to cross, preferring to take a
different road with less traffic.
And in the traffic and chaos of the
strangely homogenous city, she knew people stared at her. Even in the rain and after a month of walking
the same streets to and from school everyday, she felt people come to the front
of their shops to look at her. People stared
at her. She stood out like a bright red,
pimpled nose.
In a strange way, it felt
good. People recognized her and waved at
her. They pointed at her as if she were
a celebrity, even though she knew there was nothing special about her except
that she was far away from her home and very out of place.
She walked through the small market
district of Meeyong Jung Dong and turned at a five-story pizza restaurant that
advertised pizza with squid and shrimp on huge neon lights and strange cartoon squid.
This was past her neighborhood,
just outside of Meeyong Jung Dong, farther away from her circle of
comfort. The shops seemed larger but not
stranger, and the pedestrians and bicyclists tended to the wide sidewalks.
A crab restaurant was on her
left. She couldn’t read the Korean neon
signs out front, but the wall of aquariums with four-foot crabs clued Meg into
the type of restaurant. The crabs slowly
tapped the outside glass, knocking at the passersby as if they quietly begged to be
let out. Let out.
The strange and grotesque monsters
fascinated her. They should have become
part of her normal routine, a normal part of her walk in the last month, and she
did pass them with only a long look, as if they weren’t the mysterious
creatures she thought they were and she weren’t the tourist and foreigner that
she was.
She stopped to stare at them. The aquariums displayed them like a wall in a
zoo, but she wasn’t sure if the people watched them, or the crabs watched the
people, in their bug-eyed, ambivalent, and crustacean way.
One particularly large crab pressed
his eyes up against the glass. He, it,
seemed to look at Meg. She couldn’t be
sure because crabs weren’t self-aware and could stare at other beings with as
much curiosity as this crab stared at Meg.
The crab pressed up against the glass and looked at Meg, and she
couldn’t help but gaze at the creature.
Everyone else watched her. The crabs might as well stare at her, too,
with the eyes like brown marbles.
She stared into the glassy eyes.
“You don’t belong here,” the crab
seemed to say to her.
“I know,” she whispered back.
The crab raised a huge claw and
tapped at the glass as if to make sure she was listening. “You don’t belong here.”
Meg looked away from the crab and
kept walking. She pressed her ear buds
to her ears as if she tried to block out the city.
This city, Busan, was the best
place to hide.
i remember the feeling of being a giant, out of place white person. and, i remember the feeling of using earbuds to block out grotesque monsters telling me i don't belong here from all the other days. if you need any help let me know, it'd be nice to be able to contribute to something without the obsessive hassle of being responsible for its life; like an uncle
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